I’ve Been in the Dumps…Why + What I’m Doing to Pull Myself Out
Illness, family drama (that I created), the holidays in general, and my Dad popping up and causing havoc.
Life this past month-ish hasn’t been exactly what I planned but hey…when does life reaaaaaallllly go like we have planned?
It just…all added up…quickly. So I hid and ate too much and drank too much and tried to be kind and present but felt like I was failing miserably all over the place.
I understood why I was feeling the way I was…and I tried all my tools to work myself out of the funk but nothing worked…not as fast as I wanted it to.
The longer it went on, the more mean my internal voice became. Who was I? Why would anyone listen to me? My thoughts and opinions aren’t strong enough.
Shame. Shame. Motherfucking shame.
Shame. It’s a bitch.
Anyhoo. If there’s one thing I’ve learned through the years it’s that the light will come back at some point. Sometimes it’s quick and sometimes it’s a year or two. I’m happy when it’s only a month-ish…even though I don’t realize that when I’m in the messy middle.
So have a listen. Maybe you can relate (I’m willing to bet you can).
Perhaps this will be exactly what you need to hear today or you know someone who does.
Lots and lots and LOTS of love,